I have started and stopped this post at least four times over the last month. It’s been nine months since I first started planning the Christmas Tree Farm. That seems like yesterday and years ago all at the same time. Maybe it’s writer’s block. Unfortunately, I know that it’s more about fear. Things don’t always go as you plan. We have lost more trees than I had hoped at this time. Concolor fir trees were probably a mistake in our plan:
We have also lost our tallest tree that had been doing so well. Unfortunately, it was so tall that I decided to stake it. Not four days later it was completely dead. I pride myself as being resilient, but I also know that sometimes I run when it gets hard. This business wasn’t just a fun thing to start but had deeper meaning. I am supposed to be modeling resilience and how to think about the long-term outcomes not short-term failures. Boy it is getting hard :(
As I am writing this, I can recall many times after phones with Max that I would say ‘I have to go to work’ then Max would say ‘No, you get to go to work.’ It makes me smile every time I think of it. So, I am going to get up today and go down to the farm to plan for work backfilling all the dead trees with new ones in the fall. This wasn’t the plan, but plans need to change or modify as things come up.
So, let’s stay resilient :-)
Come grow with Us!
Susan Whitney
‘She was powerful,
not because
she wasn’t scared
but because she
went on so strongly
despite the fear.’
--Harper Lee
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